MooMoo (:

2010-11-13T23:23:00.004+08:00

I dunno whr to start . Seriously , ur actions didnt tally wif what u sae . I guess im nt impt to u . Im just a person who can accompany u , who can turn to , when u feel lonely . Yes , u asked me about what i want to tell u , but u choose de wrong timing . 2 times u asked me , when i was slping and u have nth to do . Seriously , i nid someone to care , to concern about me , to love me . Not someone who only thinks fer themselves . U said u wont talk to gals , but u did talk to gals . U said u wont smoke so much , but u did . U said u wont spend those money , but u did . So in conclusion , wad u sae , u dont mean it . I noe u are busy with your dota training , since compeition is tml . That is why i didnt blame u fer nt spending time wif me . If im realli impt to u , den show it . What i told u , u always doesnt pay much attention to it . If u realli did pay much attention , den can i ask u , when is my nxt appointment ? I doubt u will rmb my nxt appointment date . Anyway good luck fer tml competition .

2010-11-10T22:52:00.002+08:00

Seriously , im so scare of love . I dont believe in love . Too much scar , too much hurt . Im tired , im scared , im paronoid . Sometimes i doubt ur words , buden when u show actions , i believed . Seriously , i dont understand why u nid to always view her profile . Pple view is cos interested , and wants to noe more about their daily life . So u telling me , u interested in her ? Plus u is everyday , nt seldom . Do u even view my blog , my fb everyday ? Dunno , dunno , dunno . Best is to dont have any contact . Sometimes i realli want to end this r/s . But sometimes i dont realli want to end . And i dont noe why im feeling like this . -.- I say so much , do u even understand ? If only u knows how i feel n understand .

2010-11-01T21:54:00.004+08:00

So this is hw to fking treat me . Asking me to go straight home when u jolly well noe about my condition . So u have achieve ur aim , making fun of me . Asking me to meet u at cwp to eat , and when i reached , u show me attutide , and ask me to go straight home without having my dinner . ccb , knn . I fking hate u . I dont see and i dont even feel tt u care for me . When ur best friend is being jailed , u worry for him , and when his out , the first thing u do , is to visit him . How great a frenz u are . When i was being discharged from hospital , whr de fk are u ? U didnt even come visit me . Scared of my parents ? This is also ur fking fault , and u scared of my parents ? Dont give me craps . If u dare to do it , u wont even scare at all . Fker . Sae so many emo , regret stuffs , in de end u oso didnt even regret . All u did was to blame urself , did u even do any amends ? Fking ask urself , what amends u did to me ? Showing me attutide , den i fking dont want ur amends . -'- So big alrdy , still so childish , act like u are de king , only noe hw to fking think abt urself . Oh , if u want to calculate , i will calculate for u .

Ur cigg , ur meals , ur hp , ur ez-link card , ur supper during camp . Still gt tt time u work at lan , u make spoil the air-con n u borrow few hundred from me . And is nt once , is twice . Counting the number of handphone u make spoil . If u want to sae tt lollipop hp is u bought fer me , den i can tell u straight u ur fking face , u FKING DIDNT BUY IT FER ME . Or shld i sae i bought it myself ? -'- I sell away my hp and lend u those money . So tell me when did u fking buy a hp fer me using ur fking money ? U fking didnt . Frankly speaking , u didnt even bother to return me money , and u fking ask me fer pocket money . CB , how thick skin u are man . So if u want to calculate , i fking help u calculate , u owe me more den $2000 , including de taxi fare tt i took , just to pass u ur damn cigg and u owe my father $1000 . See hw much u owe my family . I think ur whole life , u will spend all ur money returning others . Buden u see till nw , u haben even fking pay ur frenz money which u owe him wif a bloody $500 only and u took more den 1 yr to return and yet , nw u still haben fking return him de money yet .

If u sae i 4gt those little things tt u did , well i didnt forget . But frankly speaking those little things , are wad a bf shld do . So i shldnt broad over it . Plus those little things u did for me , doesnt weight more den hw u treated me .

Seriously , get a life man . U are just childish , useless , hopeless , son of a bitch , bastard . Childish , because , u only know how to go audi find gals , find friends , u are just another despo freak . Oh , i 4gt u are so lonely tt u nid to resort to this . Useless , because , u dont even have a meaning in living . The rest , i dont wish to sae . If u dunno , den u are just pathetic . Hope u die a tragic end . And i fking hate u . I dont wish to see u ever in my life again . -'- U live ur life as what u want , even if u go back to the life that u once live in , it doesnt concern me anymore .

2010-10-07T00:21:00.002+08:00

Hm ... all i can sae is , i nid to be more understanding at this kind situation . Too much stress to handle . Army + skin + me . Seriously damn hard fer a person . Buden who will be more understanding to me den ? Maybe i shld nt ask fer any return .

2010-10-06T10:49:00.002+08:00

Feelings blend , love gone , coldness intrude . Wad more can i sae ? If is cos of de prob , den u choose to be cold towards me , den forget abt it , i just have to settle it myself . This only shows tt u are nt responsible , just sore loser . If u wan to compare who is de one stressing more , i can jolly well tell u . Is me , nt you . How am i suppose to tell my parents ? How am i going to continue wif my life ? Can i depend on u , when u cnt even feed urself ? Can i depend on u , when u dont even love me ? Dere's too much question tt cnt be answered .

What do you understand ? Nothing . U just dunno tt u are going back to de old u . Words are simple to sae , like abc , but when it comes to action , is hard . U always sae , buden ur action tells de opposite . Is damn dissappointed .

You sae u are unappreciated , den let me ask u at de 1st place , did u even appreciate pple at de 1st place ? NO , U FREAKING NVR ! U take things for granted . Im de best example to ur unappreciated . So is fair when u are unappreciated .

2010-09-30T22:32:00.004+08:00

I find de wordpress meaningless , tt's why i sort of closed dwn . Its purpose is to write urs and my true feelings in it , since im de only one writing it , and i doubt u oso go to view it , i nid nt write dere anymore . And i dont wish to keep remind u to read de wordpress . Is like forcing u . If u realli take this seriously , or if this is impt to u , u will read it on ur own accord .

I wonder when will u even find out tt de wordpress is being closed dwn , or u dont even knew it . Nbm , this shows hw much u care , hw impt it is . Since u have so many free times , going to audi to ask pple fer fb , view their profile , pic , etc , why dont u have time to go to de wordpress and write wad u feel or read hw i feel ? Forget it .

oh great , talk to me veri sianz rite ? Den u can dont nid to call me le . Go call others gal which wont make u feel sianz when talking to u . Issit my fault when u having trouble in army ? Issit my fault when u have nt enff money ? Hello , mind u , im ur gf , nt others .

I realli suspect or shld i sae , i dont feel de love alrdy . Or shld i sae it more directly , u dont even love me at all . Dere's a difference between i love you , and love you . If u realli love me , dont sae , prove it by action . But ur action does show tt u love me .

Thinking back wad u did , i cnt realli forgive u . I treat u so good , u tell me , which gf will go to such extend to hlp u ? Yet u treat me like this . Enough . Im seriously tired .

U have also shut urself away from me . U are nt tt open anymore . Everything either u keep it to urself or u tell others , but nt me .

Tys uh , off ur hp . Seriously , grow up man . U are still de same old u . If u want to off ur hp , den go ahead man . I seriously have enff le . Goodbye .

2010-09-22T23:01:00.005+08:00

Looking back on the past few years on this day , whr my whole family and i would go down to the playground , playing with candle , carrying lanterns walking arnd the neighbourhood , eating mooncake , viewing the full round moon . Is realli been so long since i last eat mooncake man . I still rmb the time when i was in primary sch , i stayed at my grandmother house , and my cousin and i would play sparkles outside the house , going down to the playground to play candles , eating mooncake , and my uncle would give us riddles to guess , and if we guess correctly , we will be award . Haha ! Hm ... everyone grow up now . Hardly meet each other unless special occasion . Tsk , nw i oso dont even feel de mood of mid autumn festival . I dont even noe is on de 22nd of september till someone told me . Pathetic rite ?! T_T

Hm ... didnt won de compeition . Argh . So hard . But is okay , at least we have some experience and we learnt alot .

2010-09-14T23:13:00.002+08:00

Its been so long since i blogged . Well , past fews days went smoothly . Todays marks de last paper of yr 3 , sem 1 . Maybe is oso de last exam tt i sit fer fer de rest of my life . Muhahaha . Argh , blog is rotting soon . Well , dere's always this 1 sentence tt i want to share , treasure de people who care arnd you . Is so ironic when pple noe , buden they always 4gt and their action is way opposite . When they tend to lose something , they will feel sad and regret den after awhile , they are back to square 1 again . RETARDS !

2010-09-05T08:11:00.000+08:00

Im fking pissed rite nw . Seriously im a human too and i have feelings too rite . Oh great , later SMRT will add on to my temper again . Fking cb , knn . And nw im having a bad headache . Will de date 19 be de same as before , nth goes on smoothly or will it be different this time round ?

2010-09-01T23:26:00.002+08:00

I cnt seems to trust you . Can this go on happily or will it be de same as de past ?

2010-08-31T23:20:00.002+08:00

It's de last day of August . Hope nxt month would be better . This month totally sucks to hell man . I'm paranoid . Scare of this and that . Worry about this and that . FML . Seriously i dont want to live this kind of life . I hate it . Worrying about this and that . Scare that you would leave me , blahblah . Worst my prediction always very accurate . This sucks , seriously . I'm real tired . If only this world has only 1 sex .

2010-08-29T22:27:00.002+08:00

Back to posting after so long . Hm ... whr shld i strt den ? Had bdae celebration at chalet . Atmosphere nth to sae . So de hardworking me , went to bbq fer everyone . Nice rite ? l0l ! And whr gt bdae boy bbq de ? Rawr ! Nbm , so i went to air con to relax . Nth better to do . Rawr ! In de end someone disappointed . Tsk . Cut cake , photos , clearing . Kns sia . I tot smash whole cake onto his face , actually is push his face dwn to de cake . In de end i carry de cake , de cake drop . WTH sia . Den i nid to clear everything since i make de mess rite . Responsiblity ok ! Mai siaosiao . Den unexpected things happen lo . Feel damn sianz diao . rawr ! Envy lei . So many bdae present from so many pple . Eeeeeks ! Happy liao lo . Herh !

2010-08-26T23:19:00.002+08:00

2dae marks the last day of Youth Olympics 2010 . Even though it took place within 2 weeks , it nid to take 4 yrs of preparation time just to make this event successful . Even though is just 2 weeks , everyone of the participants , helpers , did enjoy themselves . Viewers like u and me oso did enjoy ourselves . Argh . I feel so reluctant to end this event sia . Tsk . 3 cheers fer everyone !

2010-08-25T22:21:00.002+08:00

Finally , my specs have been saved after 9034930604760476 . Kns sia . That time went to de shop sae cannot be repair , nw can . -.- Nbm . No nid new spec , but I want new spec lei . Buden lazy choose . l0l ! Contradicting again . Rawr ! Hm ... well this few days was great , totally great . Seriously i wish time would stop .

2010-08-25T00:25:00.004+08:00

Sometimes I realli admire pple who can think wad they are doing / talking clearly even though they are upset , angry , etc . Things are done alrdy , time cannot be reverse back , so just bear the consequences . No matter hw worst de consequences are , i will gladly accept cos i have only myself to blame fer causing this mess . When things are alrdy done , after few days of cooling down and looking back , den i noe hw bad was i , but it was all too late . Is too late to apologize since wad's done is alrdy done , and the person is alrdy hurt . The only thing tt can been done nw is to amend what i have did , but it depends on the person if im forgivable or not .

2010-08-23T12:52:00.005+08:00

Argh , weather too hot . Rawr ! 1 more week before sch reopen , test n exams waving to me . How great is this . And i have totally no mood to study . Keep wanting to enjoy , have fun , den neglected revision . tsk . But seriously , even i study , nth goes into my head , especially BMS . Argh . Stupid module . -.- Was thinking hw i pass all my module last time . l0l ! Pure luck ? Memorising ? Or cos of project ? rawr ! After this sem jiu no more test , exam le . Sure will miss those time preparing fer exam n test . Hw contradicting .
Rawr ! Jiet stalker ! ;x l0l ! Only she rmb my blog without asking my url . l0l ! See luh , 5 +1 sister , only she gt xim , others bo xim de . l0l ! Jk luh ! Dont later ignore me . rawr ! After grad , sure will miss u all de . ): 3 yrs studying together , hlping each other was the most memorable part in my poly life .
I want to sing k again . Meet up pls . Im so bored at home . ><

2010-08-22T08:54:00.004+08:00

Is the weather too cold or smth wrong wif my body ? ><

Is dere a prob wif wad i am doing ? I dont understand why some pple still dont get de facts rite and blame others . Am i wrong to talk to pple , be it gal or guy ? Talk = flirt ? Hello , wake up can ? -.- Seriously im tired , real tired . Nw i have nth related to you and u want to control my life ? Telling me wad to do , who i can talk ? -.- Take a look at urself in the mirror . Whose the flirter here . Dont act one innocent , you hypocrite . Think of what you have done before saying others .

Gahh , these few days cnt slp properly cos of the coldness . Tsk tsk . I think most probably my body is too weak . D:

2010-08-21T22:59:00.002+08:00

Weekend was wasted . He didnt come cos he nid to wash his clothes . WTF . -.- Like im so free like this , nid to go to his wish . -.- Seriously he is a bastard . Nw i noe all his secrets . He tell every different pple different things . Seriously his de only bastard I have seen in my entire life . His de one asking fer break n den patch again . Complaining behind my back . How cool . Seriously u can go to hell . Seeing those past msges you send me , all craps , bullshyting . Nw my phone is clean without ur msges . Bloody hell , now nid to wait fer nxt nxt sat den I can have a clean cut off contact wif him . I dunno wad de fk he want . Just pass to my father can le , yet he want to pass it to me personally . Hello , is dere any different ? -.- In de end i will get my things back safetly .

Seriously , i hope u can get aids fer fking every gal . I noe im evil , but wad to do ? Im too kind , soft-hearted to you , yet behind my back u did those kind of things . Becareful when you go out , dunno when you will get accident . Karma , karma , karma ~

2010-08-21T12:54:00.006+08:00

Seriously im bored to de max . Acually gonna go out but i nid to get back my things from him . -.- Waste my time only . Zzz . Seriously i nid to vent my feelings here . Hello , u forever only think about yourself only , u didnt spare a thought fer others . The word 'sorry' , when being said from you , realli lost its meaning . Even a 3 yrs old kid after apologizing , he noe that his in a wrong and wont make de same mistake again . But you , even u said sorry , you keep repeat the mistake again n again , no ending . How pathetic . The word 'thanks' from you oso lost its true meaning . You doesnt mean it at all . Bullshyting . Didnt want to give excuses cos u are full of excuses . You are best in giving excuses . Even if u give excuses , all are rubbish , craps . You only want face , care about urself , u dont even give a damn to any pple . I pray that she wont fall into your nxt prey . All you do is to sweettalk to gals , no actions . Promise , did this word even appear in your dictionary ? I guess nt . Cos u broke too much promises . Dont act 1 hero . Does not nid anyone support . Den wad fer you go audi find gals ? All i can sae you are despo . And u realli is . U scare lonely and wants attention from others . You think u have learnt your lesson , I doubt so . Cos u are doing the same old thing over n over again . U will regret 1 day . Going out to society . I think you shld go commit suicide . Pple who doesnt treasure what they have time n time again , have no point in living . Seriously dont hurt those innocent gals like her . She has alrdy been hurt once . The things tt she did fer you . So stop using her . All the things tt you wrote on your blog , are rubbish , bullshyting to me .

Seriously idk wad his thinking luh . Sometimes , I wish tt his frenz wont hlp him when he needs hlp . He shld learn his lesson . W/e . Karma will soon reach him .

2010-08-20T23:16:00.003+08:00

I dont understand why guys are so despo than gals ? Are they looking fer attention or cos they doesn't want to be lonely tt's why they are so despo ? This guy named dominic , damn despo k . He claim that his nt . -.- Keep ask me be his gf . WTF . I dont even noe him lei . Somemore I just break . I dont trust guys , somemore this kind of guys , cnt be trusted at all . He sae he want to shower a gal his love cos he claim that he has been single for 1 month after he broke up with his gf . Hello , im nt despo . And i have no confidence in this word call L O V E . Full of craps . No more words . I only trust actions . You get wad i mean . So fk off . I realli dont understand why this kind of guy exist .

Hm ... i sense smth is very wrong . Whole body shivering . Maybe cos of just nw de room too cold ba . I did have fun . Using singing to vent all my feelings . How cool . But sometimes things really cannot be avoid . That is why is call L I F E . -.-

2010-08-20T10:42:00.003+08:00

Hi ! Im back to blogging ! Miss me ?! Nobody will noe that I have a blog unless I told them ! Hahaha ! Depends who are you . If you are those kind of jerks , bastard , bitch , den im sorry , fk off . Hm ... Well , life is too complicated for me . Nw im single , no nid to worry about anything . Argh , but sometimes i'll think abt him , hw has he been . Ok is contradicting . Gahh , wad for i care rite ? Nw he can contact his so call god sister which he claim that he likes her . So all the best for both of them . Hm ... blog later .